I didn't even realise I was hoping for a 'cure' to my grief, until a few weeks after Tiny Tyrants birth and I realised that the depth of my loss for Cacia felt deeper than ever.
Obviously…
1 week…
We did it. 'He' was born. 26 hrs after labour was first induced He arrived, in a glory of pain and tears, and He cried, the most important noise to hear in a delivery room. One week on, I have heard Him cry, held Him to my breast, slept with Him on my chest, held … Continue reading 1 week…
Term…
Tomorrow's the Day. We finally made it to 37 weeks, we are now classed as full term. Delivery is tomorrow, induction, which will hopefully end well. People keep asking 'how are you feeling?' 'Are you feeling excited?'. Honestly, I am overwhelmed with too many emotions to identify how I feel. I feel sad, upset, scared, … Continue reading Term…
Rest In Peace…
I will never rest in peace, my grief for Cacia is still not at peace, maybe it never will be, She will forever be my missing space, a void that cannot be filled.
‘New normal’…
I am accepting that it is what it is, and there is nothing I can do but my best to accept, survive and hope.
Too many questions, no answers…
What do You do? What do You do, when there are no answers, too many questions and too many unknowns? I don't know what You do, but I go numb, I get overwhelmed and my brain and body just go numb. I think it must be a self defence mechanism, my body and brain start … Continue reading Too many questions, no answers…
No right way to tell…
Single Umbilical Artery (SUA). Those are the words that came after, 'so, there is nothing to worry about, yet, your baby has...' Here's the thing, there is no right way to tell the parents of a child that died during pregnancy that their current pregnancy has a possible issue. As it goes, my OBGYN did … Continue reading No right way to tell…
