Anxiety be gone, scan showed all normal for baby and best of all baby still has a heart beat.
Unfortunately despite my flippancy, ‘anxiety be gone’ doesn’t work, if anything I feel like my anxiety has increased. This is that start of my second trimester, Cacia died at the end of the second trimester due to placental insufficiencies. I don’t think there is ever going to come a point in this pregnancy where I am not waiting for the worst to happen.
The above were my feelings 2 days ago after the scan, today I feel positive and relaxed. How it changes from moment to moment. I feel like I am on a rollercoaster; the ups and downs, the twists and turns, the stomach dropping heart frozen fear, the elation of adrenaline. This is only the first 3 months, there are still 6 months this to go. I have realised I’m on a rollercoaster marathon, just the thought of it makes my already exhausted self feel even more exhausted. Here’s to pacing oneself and fuelling up, after all it is marathon.